Thank you for your kind words & thoughts during this hard time in Pet Updates & Pet Issues Forum

0 Points

Thank you for your kind words & thoughts during this hard time

Author	Comment
Dmarie1	Thank you for your kind words & thoughts during this hard time	Lead	[-]
Posts: 12 (12/02/09 09:12 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Tags : None Just wanted to stop in & say how much John and I appreciated all of your thoughts & prayers on the loss of our little Chablis (Beanie). As you can imagine...its been a very hard year. When my Moki passed away on April 5 of this year, I thought I would die from the sadness. I miss him so very much. I never would have expected that just 7 months to the day, on November 5...my precious little Beanie girl would join her brother in Heaven. Chablis was my world, she loved to be with me & I with her. She was my little support & always cheered me up on my hardest darkest days without Moki. I miss them terribly. The hardest thing I've ever done is finding the strength every day to make it through without my little ones. Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts, and for being such a "downer" during the most festive time of the year. Its just hard, I think many of you know exactly how I feel. D'marie Salt Lake City UT Precious Angel Moki - Born November 24, 1994 (dx 12/07) Entered Heaven April 5, 2009 Forever may you run little boy!! Priscilla (Cillie) 11 yrs Perfect Health - Chablis (Beanie) 14 yrs Healthy (controlled Addisons disease) Sami 10 yrs Perfect Health Sweet Angel Jassi Born 03/19/1995 Entered Heaven Sept 14, 2007 Forever we love you little girl!
Johanna13		#1	[-]
Administrator Posts: 7207 (12/02/09 09:34 PM) Administrator & Owner Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	D'Marie You can bet I know how you feel.... Losing my killian was the absolute worst pain I ever had to endure... My Charlie ( killian clone) has helped so much to help with that pain... But I just look out side to Killians grave site and I still get a heavy feeling as if someone just punched me in my stomach.. I cant imagine your loss of both Moki and Chablis... I hope one day you can come here and post to us that you have a new arrival in your home..... No we can NEVER replace our baby's... EVER !!! but we can start to heal by opening up our hearts and home to another in need ... Killian sent me Charlie....Moki & Chablis want you to start to heal too.... They know that are hearts went with them.. But were still human and have no choice but to keep on breathing.... If our breathing can hurt less with another pet that needs us, then we need to do that...Think about it... You are always in my thoughts.... Thanks for posting, you were so missed. Last Edited By: Johanna13 12/02/09 10:12 PM. Edited 3 times.
birdk.petswithdiabetes		#2	[-]
Posts: 122 (12/02/09 10:08 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Oh Dmarie...I was just thinking of you and some of the others who have had a loss. I know how hard it is and can not even imagine the loss of 2 so close. Do your other babies help? I ask this because I know sometimes there are "special" bonds. I had this with Alex who I lost in 2003. I also had Bo at home and don't get me wrong...I loved Bo very much but Alex was my special special "friend". Without him the house was so empty even with Bo there and Bo was also grieving. I got Emma 2 months later and she did help me heal. She was 8 weeks old and it gave me something to care for and nurture. I am so sorry. this is especially hard at holidays. Wish there was something I could do to help you. I agree with Johanna. I know the times I also felt like I was punched in the stomach, a thought, passing the vet office. I think what you are feeling is normal and is part of the process. Not easy I know but still part of the loss. (((((HUGS))))))) to you!!!!!! You are not a downer, just a wonderful human being who is hurting. Kay Kay....Bo..Black miniature schnauzer.. 1995-2007..Diabetes & IBD. Emma 6 years non-diabetic. S/P mini schnauzer . Nick, S/P miniature schnauzer 1998-2010 Diabetic.
Dmarie1	Chablis Last Day	#3	[-]
Posts: 12 (12/03/09 12:28 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Thanks Jo & Kay, December 5 will be 1 month for Beanie in Heaven, & 8 months for Moki. Here I go again..1 week..1 month..2 months, I hate the 5th of the month! Moki's death hit me so hard, he did so well on getting back to health after being diabetes diagnosed, He looked better than ever, so when the rapid kidney failure hit...I wasnt ready, he was my little warrior, I told him everyday he was the strongest, bravest little boy I knew. He still is, & I pray for "that" strength for myself. At first I felt empty, numb & cold...I didnt have my little boy to take care of anymore, it was a huge void. But we still had our other 3 little ones, I was thankful for that. 4 months after Moki passed away, Chablis, went into cardiac arrest..out of the blue..no prior symptoms what so ever! All 3 of my little guys just had an echocardiogram in Spring. She was a healthy little girl, who looked younger every year. I called her the Benjamin Buttons of doggsys! Everybody who saw her thought she was just a baby. After several days in the ER my Beanie stabilized & came home, she was put on enalapril, lasix & viagra (6mg) for her heart, & an extreme low dose predisone. After 5 weeks, she was doing excellent, but she had a seizure & her BG's shot up to 580. It was from the predisone. She was taken off of it & stablized after several days in the ER. Other than her hospital stays, she acted & looked like my healthy baby girl. The Doctors were stunned by her improvement, & we were thrilled. Then it happened...November 1 she didnt want to eat, Beanie always wanted to eat. But it was more than that, I noticed she would twitch occastionally. This scared me, I saw the same thing in Moki when he was dx with rapid kidney failure. But it couldnt be happening again??? Next day same thing, although she slept good, she didnt want to eat. I feed her baby food via syringe, she was still drinking fine. She threwup a little once that day...I was hoping this was just a virus or stomach ache..but somehow I knew very deep inside..I could see it in her eyes...it was rapid kidney failure..but I was praying it wasnt. I talked with her Doctor who said it could very well be a virus, but to bring her in to do a quick blood test...it was rapid kidney failure. I was in shock, my world seemed to stop. I knew what was coming. That was November 3. The morning of November 5 I knew..this was the day my baby was going to Heaven. It was. I am so very thankful that each of my little ones left this earth in our arms, at home, surrounded by their family. I know it is not easy for people to have to make that fateful decision, God sparred us from having to do this because he knew it was already going to be a heartwrenching year for us. We do & always will love all 5 of our little ones, Moki was very special because he was my first dog..he taught me a love I never knew existed, I am forever thankful for my Moki. Jassi was Moki's sister, she passed away September 14, 2007 unexpectedly of sudden heart failure at the age of 12 1/2. Jassi also passed away in my arms. Her death was very hard, & was my first baby to leave. Cillie (11) & Sami (10) are little sweeties & are loved so much, Sami was very close to Beanie & he misses her terribly. Sami & Beanie always played together, so mommy does alot of playing with Sam right now. And Chablis..God my little Beanie was the sweetest most precious little girl ever created. My heart & soul aches for her, I miss that little face & the ultimate love she had for her mommy. I know this is long but I guess I needed to just tell her little story...Its too hard to talk about but I can write. I wanted to share this last photo with you..Chablis loved to lay on the floor in our living room with the sun coming through the window. I laid with her in the same place she always did, it was a warm sunny day on November 5. My husband took this picture, It was to be Beanies last hour on earth. I didnt know he was taking it but Im so glad to have it. It is still too sad for me to look at but I wanted to share it with you. Chablis passed away within the hour of this photo being taken, I was holding her close to my heart..she looked up at me..I told her it was okay to go with Moki now..I kissed her little head...I felt her take her last breath & her little heart stop beating. Thank you for letting me share this with you...D'marie http://i260.photobucket.com/albums/ii15/esaltlake/IMG_8305.jpg D'marie Salt Lake City UT Precious Angel Moki - Born November 24, 1994 (dx 12/07) Entered Heaven April 5, 2009 Forever may you run little boy!! Priscilla (Cillie) 11 yrs Perfect Health - Chablis (Beanie) 14 yrs Healthy (controlled Addisons disease) Sami 10 yrs Perfect Health Sweet Angel Jassi Born 03/19/1995 Entered Heaven Sept 14, 2007 Forever we love you little girl!
debbuna		#4	[-]
Moderator Posts: 2101 (12/03/09 01:01 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	OMG D'Marie, that picture..... My heart is aching for you. I simply can't imagine what you are feeling. My thoughts and prayers are with you now and I truly believe that all these little ones are with you too. I'm glad you came back to talk to us and know that you are very much missed here. Please come again and let us know how you are doing. and my Lucy, American Pugsley, age 15 -born 4/18/1996, DX. diabetic Nov. 07, blind 2/08, Weight 11 lbs., Humulin N 7 U , Homecooked chicken/white rice with canned Hills W/D My sweet, baby Lucy left me peacefully on October, 24, 2011 with her head on my shoulder and my comforting whispers in her poor little, deaf ear. I know she was met faithfully at the bridge by all her friends that went before her. Rest in peace, my baby. Lucy, 4/18/96-10/24/11
angelsissy		#5	[-]
Posts: 390 (12/03/09 01:53 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Your heart was broken twice this year. That is so sad. I know what you mean about there being a void - when Sissy left, I really didn't know what to do with the time I had spent with her. Poor Fritz - he must think he is diabetic - I put him on a 12 hour feeding schedule also! I envy you that your babies left in your arms - THAT trip to the vet is heartwrenching by itself. Leave alone coming home without your baby. I will pray for peace and strength for you and your family. Perhaps another little one would help heal your heart - I know it did with our Fritz. Even though you are sad, I can hear some bits of recovery in you when you talk about the things they did and enjoyed. It will get better.
Johanna13		#6	[-]
Administrator Posts: 7207 (12/03/09 02:20 PM) Administrator & Owner Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	Jerri " I really didn't know what to do with the time I had spent with her. Poor Fritz - he must think he is diabetic - I put him on a 12 hour feeding schedule also"" I am doing the same thing !!!!
angelsissy		#7	[-]
Posts: 390 (12/03/09 03:45 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	And - the only treat he gets is the chicken jerky that I make! I am starting to loosen up a bit on that one - slowly. And exactly the same amount of food in the bowl at both feedings! Sissy always went outside by herself, did her business and came back in. Fritz, on the other hand, would be in the next county before I could catch him, so I spend a lot of time with him outside on a leash. It gets really cold in Ohio in the winter! I had him microchipped, but now I can't find it on his neck. I'm going to have the vet scan him to see if it is still there!
Brandy mom		#8	[-]
Administrator Posts: 3837 (12/03/09 06:47 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	D'Marie I read this at work and had tear coming down my cheeks. I just can't find the words that will help. I sorry you lost two babies this year it must be heart breaking. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayer that you find peace. I know you were the best mom. Dawn
mommytoNash		#9	[-]
Posts: 9789 (12/08/09 08:46 PM) Administrator Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	D'Marie, I am so sorry I am just reading this today. Life has been beyond hectic. But, I just wanted you to know how much my heart aches for you. I can't imagine losing two babies in one year. And it will take you a long time to get into a place where it won't tear your heart out. I'd love to see pictures of your other two babies when and if you get a chance. The one you posted was precious! Thank you for sharing, and know we are here for you. Please come and visit again soon! Hugs, Cindy and Nash Nash was born 9/2/1998, and is my sweet 1/2 breed Cocker Spaniel/English Springer Spaniel. He was dx'd with diabetes in November 2007 and is currently on 9 units of Novelin N twice a day. Nash went blind approximately 6 mnths after dx, has glaucoma and gets eye drops 5x day
rhodesian46		#10	[-]
Posts: 1994 (12/09/09 09:22 PM) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts	D' MARIE, I feel your pain. Losing 2 babies in one year just tore you up! That is to be expected!! I don't think it is any easier to have a dog pass in your arms or having to make that decision to end their life. It is hard both ways. It rips your heart out I know. This is the time to pay extra attention to your remaining 2 dogs. It helps you heal. When Pebbles passed I was a basket case. I cried all of the time. I couldn't pay attention to my other 5 as I was grief stricken. She passed 2 months before X Mas. The first holiday was super hard I found myself watching the counter tops where the treats where. Pebbles was known to reach for the treats!! The dog was in love with Good in Plenty. She would catch them in mid air Of course this was before her Dx The daily habits of caring for her was hard to break. I wanted her back. I wanted her back now because I was hurting. You probably feel the same way still. It will get better. Time will heal. Some here have gotten another dog as this helped the heaing process. I happened to have 5 more dogs left. 3 of which are 8 years and up. To me it wasn't fair to have them being shared Welll a year went by and I rescued a pointer that was abused. Didn't plan to get Sophie. I just couln't stand to see her tied up with no shelter etc. So I know have 6 dogs. Each and every one of them have a special place in my heart. Maybe in time you will be able to get another dog. But in the meantime heal at your own pace. You will know when it is time. Can you post pics of your other 2 dogs?